I asked myself why this had thrown me as much as it obviously did, because there I was half a day later still slightly disturbed. Mulling this over, as I always do when something happens which throws me off-balance, I realised that the strong certainty with which she talked about things had caught me on the hop by highlighting what I felt were my own uncertainties and making them look like weaknesses.
The Wood element, on the other hand, has other
priorities. Wood does not have the
luxury of weighing up pros and cons. It
is there to get on with things, and its decisions have to be rapid and taken in
a “no turning back” kind of spirit. Once
made, these decisions have to be put into effect as soon as possible, and once
it has decided what its opinion about anything is, that fixes it, if not for
all time, then certainly for the immediate future. During the time I spent with my Wood friend,
I heard many statements of fact which sounded as though they were my friend’s
firm opinions. With each of her emphatic
statements I could feel any confidence in my own certainties fading a little,
as my Small Intestine tried to take on board what was being so firmly offered
as fact. It often felt itself swayed by
these dogmatic statements because it couldn’t give itself enough time to assess
whether at heart it agreed with them or not.
This was another important lesson for me on the differences
between Wood’s ability to make decision and my own, and also gave me further
insights into Inner Fire’s potential weaknesses, as well as its potential
strengths. These are related to its need
always to see the other side of the question and therefore to evaluate the
relative merits of the arguments being presented to it. I feel that Wood has no such
hesitations. Once having made up its
mind, that is it. And as I put it
myself, it can’t afford to have doubts, because doubts will hold it back from
acting, and action is above all what Wood wants.
I learned a further lesson about the Wood element from one
of my Wood patients who told me, rather aggressively, that he found my presence
challenging, and, being also an acupuncturist, he attributed this to my being,
he thought by mistake, of the Wood element.
Although I have learnt over the years never to show that I am taken
aback by personal comments from patients, I found that I reacted inside myself
with quite a vehement desire to answer back sharply, and had to hold myself
back from doing so. Afterwards I found
that the episode had disturbed my inner equilibrium, and I tried to work out
why this was. By dint of some careful
self-examination, I realised that this patient had projected on to me his own
dislike of being challenged and had in effect made me angry, often the effect
Wood can have when the Wood person or I are out of balance. I then analysed my feelings to see what they
told me about anger in myself and how far my reaction had been unbalanced,
before finally using what I learned from this as a way of understanding not
only the Wood element better, but other elements within me, such as Water (my
fear of the anger) and Fire (my own element’s reaction to stress). An interaction of just a few minutes
therefore became through this a valuable lesson about the part of me which
reacted to the Wood element, as well as about Wood and other elements in
general.
Sometimes I come across very appropriate quotations about the elements in books that I read which I like to collect. Here is one about the Wood element in a book by Helen Dunmore called The Spell in Winter
“I was bad at anger; I’d always been bad at anger. There was something pitiful in Miss Gallagher which muddled me.”
I, too, have always been "bad at anger". That doesn't mean that I don't get angry. I certainly do. But my anger leaves a strong aftertaste in me which it takes me a long time to get rid of. It is as though I am ashamed of feeling this emotion. The "something pitiful" which the protagonist in this book feels is something which resonates with me, because I also tend to find quite legitimate excuses for the behaviour in people that has provoked my anger.
Thus do I learn a little more each day about myself, about my Inner Fire and about my relationship to the Wood element.
Finally, here is a lovely illustration of Wood’s sensitivity
to the effects of acupuncture treatment.
It would help us in corroborating some of the principles according to
which we work if patients were able to report precise effects when feeding back
on the outcome of any particular treatment, but it is rare for patients’
assessment of improvement (or otherwise) to be so precise as to enable us to
relate this to any particular treatment rather than to a combination of
treatments. To encourage us, however, it
does, occasionally happen that a patient may say something like, “whatever you
did last time made me feel marvellous (made my backache better, helped me cope
better)”.
On rare occasions, feedback can be even more specific. I treasure still, like some beacon in this
particular wilderness, the memory of a Wood patient who, when I needled Gall
Bladder 40, described immediately in perfect detail the pathway of part of the
Gall Bladder meridian. He traced the
movement of energy down to the toe and back up along the outer leg, where with
great accuracy he showed me the odd lateral dip the Gall Bladder is said to
take at mid-calf, and then continued to draw a path up over his knee to his
abdomen, finally arriving at his head, where he said, “I seem to feel something
up here at the side of my eye.” I have
had other Wood patients describe the line of some movement of energy along a
Gall Bladder pathway in this way, but none so precisely as this. It may well be that Wood, the element which
structures us, can feel the structure of its own shape reasserting itself as
more energy, like sap in a plant, courses through its pathways as a result of
treatment. I have not had such detailed
descriptions of the passage of energy from patients of other elements.
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